restless ego,
chase away the image
of the one that was promised;
replace it with the one who was found
but only when she was lost.
metal grinds inside your heart:
can you even contemplate
the chasm of confusion
and conspiracy you've created?
she writhes apart from me,
while this drips down my chest,
and out my fingertips,
sticky and malicious,
envious, heaven-sent deliverance:
do i deserve this?
behind a mask of liquor and
intimacy: are you anything
but a part of me? twisted,
beautiful, destroy us and,
just like a dark moonrise,
light up our nights.
stir crazy, for the heart wants
what it can't have
and the mind craves
what it can get:
pragmatic romantic,
this is an exercise in mismanaged expectations.
the time for reaching so high
above your head that your arms
grew weary and, just before you gave up,
i fell directly into them,
your web, my cradle.
this is it. it is what it is.
sobriety is a phase and happiness
is forever, if at all.
choose this, this final age of man:
catch a buzz, cyborg lover,
take my hand and come with me forever.
